Good evening/Falling off the Map

Good evening everyone. I’m sorry it’s been a few days. I’m… I’ve fallen off the map so to speak. I’ve had a lot going on with work since we came back from vacation. We are Mandatory 48 hrs as of Thursday. We’ll probably be back to normal by tomorrow, but who knows. Lots of dramas, lots of problems. I’ve decided to stick it out. I didn’t take the job with the Chicken Plant in Siler City. I have many reasons why I didn’t take the job, but the main one was I didn’t want to start over somewhere new and wait another 90 days to get my benefits. I have some doctor’s appointments I want to make and I want to start my counseling as soon as possible. I’m not looking forward to it, but I am at the same time. I want to heal and move forward. I am going to do my best to take my therapist advice. I’m truly excited. I’ve signed for my benefits on Friday. I will be getting my cards in the mail in the next few weeks. I’m truly excited. I feel things are finally coming together. I’m working on paying off my credit card and my Nelnet which is my student loans so I can make room for some gym time this year. I’m hoping to start it sooner than that, but we’ll have to wait and see. Until I get my tax refund I’ll just have to be careful. In other news, I have my goal for January set up. I’ll post about that in a separate post.

As always I’m honored to have you guys on this journey with me. I’m still concentrating on the physical, but the mental and emotional is where I need the most work. I have to find the will to lose weight and keep it off. I have to get my dad’s voice and judgment on me out of my head and my heart. I’m looking forward to the day when I will no longer hear it.

Always in Love,

Kathleen