May’s Monthly Goal

Hello again. For this month’s goal, I decided to do something different. Most of my goals I try to get it done before the end of the month. This month’s goal is: Focus on me. With my recent doctor’s visit, I decided to start taking better care of myself. So I’ve decided to start focusing on eating better and not going out as much. I’m cutting certain things out and putting other things in. I’m still doing my food diary and that has been very helpful. I’ve added some fruit in my diet and I’m choosing some Gluten free and dairy free options for my snacks for work instead. I’m paying more attention to the ingredients and avoiding items I know make me sick. I feel really good about these decisions. I think they will be lifelong decisions I can look back on in my later years and feel good about.

As always, thank you for your support. I love you guys so much. Take care and have a great day.

Always in Love,

Kathleen

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May’s Monthly Update

Hello!!! I hope this post finds you well. I’m sorry I haven’t updated sooner. I’ve been busy with work and other things going on. So I wanted to let you know how everything went to the doctor. So here we go. I went to the doctor on Wednesday, May 2nd. I decided to see my mom’s doctor. Her name is Doctor Rowena Sistasis. She’s a wonderful woman and she’s very pretty. She listened to me and wrote everything down. She was very throughout and checked out everything. She gave me some Zyertic and I took that and I’m starting to feel better. She and I also discussed my blood tests that Urgent Care took when I went to them when I started to feel bad back in March. Dr. Rowena is concerned that I might have high blood pressure, but she made some suggestions about that so I’ve been working on them. We also discussed my pre-diabetes number and that was high. She made some suggestions about that as well. She said if I could lose five pounds that would help. I’m also going back at the end of this month for a physical. I’m hoping that by then I won’t have to go on high blood pressure medicine. I’m also going to have my pat smear done. I’m not looking forward to that, but I want to get it done. A lot of things run in my family and I want to avoid getting these things so I need to work on that now. I don’t’ want to wait until I’m sixty or older to try and deal with this stuff. I do have good news. When I went to Dr. Rowena they took my height and my weight and I’ve lost some more weight. I was 241 in August 2018. I am 236 as of May 2, 2019. I’ve lost five pounds and I’m so excited and proud of myself. My hard work is paying off.

Work is still busy. Things are getting extremely hairy. A co-worker is making trouble for me. I have had to talk with my supervisors about because I can’t handle it on my own. I don’t know what’s going to happen, but I’m not worried. I told my mom that I’m just glad I could get it off my chest. I’m doing my best to hang in there.

In my last post, I mentioned that I would be updating you guys about some decisions I’ve been making. I’ve decided to go back to school to become a therapist. I’ve decided to drop getting my massage license for the time being and focus on school. I’ve already researched schools. I’ve decided to go to a community college first, then transfer to another school. I will get my bachelor’s and my master’s. Then after that, I’ll go on to graduate school. I’ve got a long road ahead of me, but I’m really excited about this. I’m bored and I need something to do. I need something to challenge me a little. I think this will do that. I think I will be challenged and I have always wanted to go to a 4-year University like my sisters did. I’m really excited about this. I decided to wait at least a year before attending school. I told my mom I want to hang in at my work for as long as I can. I’m truly excited.

Well, that’s all for now. I’ll keep you informed on everything. I’ll be posting my goal for this month.

Thank you once again for the views on my blog. I truly appreciate your love and support.

Always in Love,

Kathleen

Quick Update

Hey everyone. I just wanted to check in real fast. I promise I haven’t fallen off the map or anything. I’ve been really busy with work. It’s gotten super crazy and stuff. I’m also experiencing some health issues and my body is hurting really bad. I will update you guys tomorrow on everything. I’m planning to visit a doctor tomorrow to see if she can help me find some answers. In the update tomorrow I will announce some decisions I have made recently and what my plan of action is. Some of my dreams that have been sitting on the shelf are going to come off the shelf and become reality. I’ll explain more tomorrow. So until tomorrow, I love you and thank you all for your love, support, prayers, encouragement, likes, follows, and for just being there. I love you guys so much. I wouldn’t be here without you.

Always in Love,

Kathleen

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April’s Monthly Goal

Good evening. I hope this post finds you well. I was off today and I finally cleaned my room. I cleaned my room and I rearranged my bed and my dresser. I finally put up my organizer for my room that I bought some time back. I wanted to clean my bathroom, but it took me so long to clean my room so I am waiting to clean my bathroom until I’m off again. I’m so excited. I feel better about my room. It feels clean and organized and I love it.

Now onto my monthly goal. I’m truly excited about this month’s goal. I got the idea for it when I was at work packing one night. I have a lot of time to think about things when I’m working. So this idea came to me and I love it. So without further adieu, here it is. April’s Goal is: Focus on MBLEx. The MBLEx is a state board test that I have to pass in order to get my massage license. I’ve been studying for it on and off this past year. But for my goal, I am going to focus on another aspect of the state board test. I’m going to put my money into my savings to pay for the test. To take the state board test I have to pay 195 dollars. I’m also going to put the fee I owe for getting my license. I have to pay 190 or 194 dollars to get my license as well. I will put 15 dollars into my savings instead of 10 dollars. I started last month by putting in 15 dollars. I’m excited about this because not only was I worried about the test itself, but also how I was going to pay for it. I decided that with the overtime I’m earning at work I decided to start putting money into my savings. That way the money can sit there until I am ready to take the test. I’m excited because I finally feel like I have some control over my life. It’s a wonderful feeling, isn’t it, when one part of your life makes sense. I love it.

Well, that’s all for now. Wish me luck.

I love you all!!

Always in Love,

Kathleen

April’s Monthly Update

Good evening everyone. I can’t believe it’s the first day of April. Wow!! I just hope the weather will cooperate and become more spring. Well onto the wonderful news.

So I’ve come to a decision about my job. I’ve decided to stay with the company and I’ve also decided to stay as a packer/inspector instead of trying to become an operator. I made the decision when things started to get better for me at work. I’ve started to pray a little more and I decided to talk with my supervisors about Martha. Martha is my lead packer. She makes all the assignments for the packers and so on. She has continued to harass me and finally, I got fed up. I talked with Charles and Mo about it and they sent her an email. Since then she hasn’t said a word to me. Not having her to harass me it’s been really great. I feel more confident about the job I am doing. I just do my assignment the best that I can and I don’t worry about anything. Unless Charles and Mo call me into the office I just don’t worry anymore. It’s been wonderful. More good news. They have changed our schedules so instead of the schedule we have now we have a rotating schedule and I get two different days off every week. For example, I was off Sunday and today. Then I’ll work Tuesday-Friday and I’ll be off this coming weekend (Sat-Sun). It’s wonderful. It’s the old schedule I worked when I used to work for the company. I love it. I’m the only one that loves the schedule. Everyone else doesn’t like it because it makes it harder for them to get their forty-eight hours in for the week. We are still on a mandatory 48-hour week schedule. We’ve been on this schedule for about two or three months now straight. I don’t see it changing anytime soon. I’ve also been working on my goal for April. I’ll be posting that in a separate post. I’m very excited about this month’s goal.

Now that work is finally settled I’m going to work on getting stuff to work out at home. I’m going to get an exercise bike and some weights as well. I’m very excited about this. I have everything picked out that I want I just have to buy it.

So that’s all the news for now. I’ll keep you posted on everything.

I love you guys. Thank you for your continued support, encouragement, and prayers. I truly appreciate you. I hope you have a wonderful evening.

Always in Love,

Kathleen

 

Happy St. Patrick’s Day!!

Hello everyone. I know it’s been a while. Work is super crazy and I have been super tired. But enough about that. Today is a special day. Today is St. Patrick’s Day. I’ve never celebrated it, but for some reason, I decided to do so. I never even knew what the holiday was or anything like that. So today I decided to google it and I found it very interesting. The thing that fascinated me the most was that it was a Christian Holiday to honor St. Patrick, according to the research I did. I don’t know why that fascinated me so much, but it did. I hate to say this and I know it may be wrong, but I’m tired of being a Christian sometimes just because I am supposed to say the right thing and do the right thing, but I’m not. I’m not perfect. I get so irritated at people you know. “You” judge the entire “Christian group” based on how one Christian acted toward you. That is why I don’t refer to myself as a Christian anymore. For one, it’s overrated and two I prefer a different term. I prefer to be called a Christ follower. The reason I like this term is that I am a student of his word. I follow him because I have faith. Faith is the evidence of things not seen. (Hebrews 11:1) Most Christians want to believe in what they see I know because I’ve seen it. I am one of those Christians. Well, I used to be. I live by faith. God has some done some really awesome things this past week and I believe that he will do anything he says he will. He has really pulled me out of the fire. I’m not saying I have it all figured out. I’m not saying that I don’t doubt myself, my sexuality, my place in the world as a woman, but what I am saying is that this: I will live by faith. Faith is what gets us through the hard times. It truly does. I see that now. I want to make a difference. I want to help others and I don’t want any glory for it. That is the difference between a “Christian” and a Christ Follower. I know many Christ followers. I have seen many, but you won’t see them in the front lines. They will be behind the scenes, suffering in silence and crying many tears. They will pray instead of worrying. They will trust and have faith in God, even though they are suffering and in pain. I’m not sure why this comes up. Maybe because of this holiday and the research I did. It’s something I feel very strongly about, but I don’t say it often because I don’t want to be a preacher. I don’t want to force my beliefs on anyone. I want to be a friend to everyone and be an encourager. I want people to see God, not me. I want people to look at me and say hey if she can do it so can I. If I can help one person I know in my heart, I will have made a difference. I don’t even care if I live to see it. I just want to help one person, at least one. I’m sure I’ve helped more than one, but even if I’ve only helped one that will make me happy.

Enjoy this day and Happy St. Patrick’s day!! I am spending the day with my mom at home resting. I had to work yesterday and I’m beat.

I love you all so much and we’ll talk again soon.

Always in Love,

Kathleen

Brief Update

Hello everyone. Hope this post finds you well. I am going insane. Work is crazy. I still haven’t had a chance to be an operator yet. The last time I updated I told you guys that I wanted to tra different job. An operator is the one works on the machines and makes the yarn for the packers to pack, but there are no racks for the operator’s to put the yarn so I have to stay packing until there are racks which might take some time. It’s crazy. I’m tired.  I didn’t sleep well yesterday and I went to work and worked fours and came home. It was awful. I still can’t sleep. I’m going to go to the doctor. Then when I came home Megan needed more information about my taxes. I’m really discouraged about my taxes. I don’t think I’ll even get a refund at this point. I’m doing my best to stay positive. It’s been hard, but I’m trying. I’m just tired you guys. I’m so tired I can’t think straight. I wish I could have my own business so I wouldn’t have to work for someone else. I’ve always wanted to have my own business. I feel like I can’t ever get ahead. I hate it. I really do. It’s awful. I feel like I’m going ten thousand steps backwards. I feel defeated. I want to leave and find another job, but I can’t. Mom’s depending on me more and more and I feel like I’m at breaking point. Actually, I’m already there. I just don’t know what to do anymore. I hope to get some sleep and go to work tomorrow and get my hours in for the week. Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers. Any loving vibes or hugs you want to send would be most appreciated as well.

Thanks for tuning in. I love you guys.

Always in Love,

Kathleen

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