Hi everyone!! Hello. I hope you are guys are doing well. I know it’s been a long time. I had some family stuff and stuff going on with myself so I took a break for a while from my social media to focus on that. I’ve learned a lot and I’m really grateful for what’s going on in my life. I’m grateful for my family and friends. You guys are always in my thoughts and prayers. I love you all so much. I’ve recently re-entered the social media world this weekend and so far so good. I hope to be writing here again soon. I hope you guys are doing well. I know this pandemic has got everyone going crazy, but I want to encourage you to hang in there with me, and let’s ride this out together. I know it’s been hard, but please know that the only way to get through this is to be united. We need to come together and work together as a team. We need to put aside our differences and let bygones be bygones. I’m not going to sit here and preach to you about this because we all know. We are grown-ups here. Just know that I love you and I will support you no matter what. I’ll pray for you and I’m here if you want to talk. I won’t judge you or tell you how to live your life or what to believe in. I only know what I believe and I believe it to be the truth because I’ve seen things happen that can’t be explained. I have seen things done in my life that I have wanted answers to for years and I finally got an answer because I believe God showed me the answer for a reason. That’s all I’ll say about that. If you want to know more feel free to drop me a comment and we’ll chat. I promise I will listen and I will do my best to answer your questions. If I don’t have an answer I will do my best to get you an answer. I’m not perfect (I wish was), but I’m not.
I will leave you now my friends, but I promise to be back soon. Stay safe and remember I love you!!
Always in Love,
Hello, my friends,
How are you guys? I can’t believe it’s March. What a busy time. I love March. It means warmer weather is on its way. I love Spring. Everything will be blooming again. I love it. Spring means that the school year is almost over. I’m so excited. It’s going to be a long month though, and no holiday breaks until April. I’m just happy February is over. What a horrible and a great month all at the same time.
In February I quit my job and gave my resignation. I had a huge, ugly and nasty fight with my mom and decided to stay with my job. I’ve also experienced a lot of mood swings and rough days. I tried to get my finances in order so I can get counseling. Lastly, I gave up my dreams of going to school for now at least. I was sick with migraines and other ailments. I have grown up and I feel alive and different.
This month I will be focusing on getting back to me and concentrating on losing weight. I went shopping yesterday and I’m going to start cooking at home again. I made a London Broil in the crockpot and let it cook all night. Today I made fresh Brussel sprouts wrapped in bacon. They are delicious. I love them fresh. I bought some other meats and veggies and fruits. Strawberries are my favorite. They are so yummy.
This month I’m also working on buying a house so my mom and I could move. I’m also hoping that once my mom turns 65 next year that she can quit her job and I will be able to support her. Hopefully, after she quits her job she can draw on her social security until she can officially retire at 66. I told her on Valentine’s Day that I wanted to buy a house and support her. I told her to think about it. She said she would and we have been looking since then. I’m looking forward to having a place of her own. It’s also possible that Megan will be moving in with us. Megan, mom, and I are so much closer than we were before and I want us all together again. I miss her so much. It will be nice to live together in the same house.
Megan is doing well. She’s in treatment again and it’s been rough on her, but compared to where she was last year at this time in treatment she’s much better. Christa is sick. She texted me to tell me that she has a viral infection. I’ve been checking in on her to make sure she’s okay. Mom is doing okay. She’s hurting a lot from working, but hopefully, soon I’ll be able to help her with that. Otherwise, she’s doing well.
I’ll keep everyone posted on what we decide to do about the house and all. I’m very excited about it.
I love you all and have a great day!!
Always in Love,
Good morning my fellow bloggers. I hope this post finds you well. I had a breakthrough yesterday I just had to share it with you. I hope this will help you and encourage you.
Yesterday I went shopping with my sister Megan. We were getting ready to head to the next store and I got a migraine. She helped me to get to the store so I could get some medicine. I didn’t get my migraine in time and I ended up having a headache and I threw up. I ended up not going into a couple of stores with her because I physically couldn’t get up and out of the car. After we got back to her place I went to the store to get some ginger ale and then I went home. I took some more medicine and drank some ginger tea. After I rested for a while I decided to go for a walk to see if that would help. Boy did it ever. It helped me so much. I have been walking every day after I get done the bus in the afternoon. I have been trying to do 10-12 thousand steps a day. I’m trying to do at least five miles a day. I have been keeping track of my steps on my phone with an app called Health. It’s white with a red heart. It has been my lifesaver. Yesterday I did 12,670 steps, 5.5 miles, and I climbed 18 floors. That’s the most I have ever done in a day. I couldn’t be prouder of myself. Megan was so supported and made me use self-care yesterday to take care of myself. My mom helped me by helping me to get my medicine I needed to take and she made me the ginger tea I drink. I was talking with my mom last night and she told me she said, “You are losing weight. You have been diligent in your walking.” Just to hear those words. I can’t even deserve to you how I feel. I’m speechless. She has been there for me all this time since the beginning. She’s been my biggest supporter. I just love her. My heart is so overjoyed I think it’s going to burst.
So today I have decided to make a list and go shopping. I’m going to put myself on a new diet and stick to it this time. After yesterday I told Megan I said I’m done with Cheese and Gluten. I’m giving them up. It will be hard, but I can do it. I have such support from my family and friends, and you guys too that I know I can do this. I’m on my way to a healthier me. I’m very excited. I hope you will join me and we can lose weight together.
I love you and have a great day!
Until next time my loves…
Always in Love,
Hello everyone. It’s January. I can’t believe it. We are heading into week three of January. It’s crazy right. I feel like we just started this month. I’m glad it’s going by quickly. So far it has not been a good month for me. I feel like I’m back up against the wall and there is no way out for me, but instead of running like I would have in the past I am doing something different. I’m staying. I’m getting up every day and I’m praying. I’m keeping the faith. I don’t like my job. I hate it. I don’t even want to go there anymore, but that’s okay. I have finally figured out why I don’t want to be there. I have found out the reason why I am so unhappy there. I have unhappy there and been unhappy at every job I have ever been at because it’s not meant for me. It’s not where I am supposed to be. I am going to stay and work there and work hard to reach my goals. I have a big goal for this year and then I am using the little goals to achieve it. My big goal is to go back to school. I am doing it. I’m sick and tired of putting my dreams on hold because I am putting everyone else’s needs and wants before mine. I’m sick of it. I deserve to be happy. I deserve to go back to school. I want to and I will. So how do I achieve this? I am going to pay off my debts and pay on my car. I am going to get my debt out of the way and then I will go back to school. I will go to school and find a part-time job so I can have some money coming in. I’m very excited. It makes me want to go back to work tomorrow, even though I don’t really want to.
I’m going back to school for Psychology. I want to be a therapist. I want to have my own business so I can create my own hours. I want the freedom to do other things that I want to do. I know this is going to be a challenge for me. I know that I have many choices and obstacles that I will face. I will face them with the assurance that everything will be alright. I know that if this is God’s plan for me then everything will work out. Life is great. I daydream about all this, sometimes I daydream what I want my office to look like and what I will wear. I even think about changing my name. I think about what that will look like. It’s really great. It makes me happy. It makes me very happy. I know this sounds crazy, but these moments are the happiest times of my life. I truly feel free to be myself and that I can do anything. I even tell myself to start living as if I am debt-free. It’s amazing right.
Currently, I am seeking to go to school at a university instead of online learning. I think I would benefit from the one on one experience at a college instead of online learning. I have two schools that I am choosing between and I am going to schedule a visit to them both and then I can decide what I want to do. I want to figure out all my options so I can make the best choice for myself. I am trying to decide between North Carolina State University and William Peace University. Both are located in Raleigh, NC. They are both very expensive, but there are grants, scholarships, and loans available to me and even with these three options there are a lot of choices. But I’m not going to let that deter me from achieving my dreams and goals. I am going to schedule a visit to both schools and decide where I want to go. Both have really great programs and both schools have something that I like.
I’ll keep you guys informed on what I decide and all of that. I would ask you to please pray for me and encourage me and support me as I go through this process. I am also in the process of seeking counseling for some personal issues I have. I have a therapist in mind that I want to talk with and I am going to start figuring out how to make sure I go to the appointments. Money is kind of tight right now so I’m trying to figure out what to do about that. My insurance might cover some of it. I have to check everything out. So while I’m figuring this out I will be stepping away from my blog for now. I want to focus on these things. I will check in with you guys and let you know what’s going on.
Thank you guys for your love, support, and encouragement. Especially thank you for your prayers. It all means so much to me. I think of you guys all the time and I love you all very much. Thank you to everyone who has reached out to me and has been there for me!! It really does mean the world to me.
Until next time…
Always in Love,
Good afternoon everyone!! I can’t believe we are starting a New Year today. Isn’t it exciting?! I know I’m excited. I have so many things I want to do this year. So today I want to tell you about my plans.
- Every year I clean out my old receipts and old bills. I did that last night.
- I clean out my desk by taking my folder of goals I have for each day and putting the paper in my drawer to be used for scrap papers.
- I took down my calendar from December 2019 and put up January and February 2020’s calendars. I labeled February with all my bills and when they are due.
- I took down my old calendars and put up my new calendars that I bought from Hobby Lobby near my bed. One is of places in Italy. The second one is about Family and faith. They’re both very beautiful. I’m going to enjoy looking at them.
- I will organize my bills so I can pay off my credit cards and then my car payments.
My plan this year is to focus on myself and go for my dreams. To accomplish this I am working on paying my debt off. I’m going to pay off my credit cards and work on paying my car payment. I’m going to go back to school and to do that I need to work on the goals I listed above. I haven’t decided whether I will go to school online or I will go to a 4-year university, but I have some schools in mind. I just have to get my debt paid off and decide where to go and when I will be attending school. I’m tired of not going for my dreams because I’m afraid of what others will think and importantly I’m afraid I won’t have their support. But it’s all nonsense. If people really love me and care about me they will love me, care for me, and support me no matter what. I’ve also decided on a major. I will be majoring in Psychology. I want to be a therapist. I’m really looking forward to this. I have always wanted to be a therapist. I look forward to finally going for my dream. I’m so thrilled. I’m so excited. I couldn’t be happier if I tried.
Hope you all have a wonderful day and we’ll see each other again soon.
Always in Love,
2019 has been a year of ups and downs. I’ve had a good year of memories that I made with my family. A good year for me to begin again and start over somewhere new. I started a new job this year. I work at Northeastern Randolph Middle School. I work in the cafeteria and drive a bus. Both jobs have proved to be a challenge, but with my faith, family, and my friends I made it through and I will continue to make it through.
2019 has also had some rough times for me. Several job changes and difficult things I have had to deal with personally. It has been a year since I talked to my father and I’m still dealing with my issues and feelings for him. I’m finally going to get some counseling to help me with this. I was also unemployed for some time before starting my job with the Northeastern Randolph Middle School. I have grown a lot. I have learned a lot, but it hurt. It was very painful and even in my new job I have had difficult times and challenges that were very hard.
2019 wasn’t the year I expected, but I learned a lot about myself. I took time for myself and I loved it. I became stronger. I became a different person. I became a better me. I began to have faith in God again and I know everything will work out for me in 2020. In my next post, I will be posting what my plans are for 2020.
Goodbye 2019. Hello, 2020.
Always in Love,
New Year’s Eve Eve, I spent with Megan. Megan and I went to Raleigh to do some shopping. Then we came back to Siler to do more shopping. After that, I came home and watched different episodes of Murder She Wrote.
New Year’s Eve- I am spending the day with Megan and Jeff. Mom is coming with me. I’m taking Jeff to lunch. I’m also going to do some shopping. I decided to cancel my reservation and mom and I are going to eat at home for New Year’s Eve. I’m making Salisbury steak, mashed potatoes, and gravy. I’m going to Wal-Mart today to get some wine to go with dinner. I’m very excited. I’ll be posting a Year In Review later on today.
Hope everyone has a wonderful day and I’ll see you again soon.
Always in Love,