Fear of Abandonment Chapter: One

Hey guys! As promised here is a little excerpt from my book Fear of Abandonment. It’s from the first chapter. Basically what’s happening here is Kyle is sick and he’s not sure why. I didn’t put a lot of the first chapter in here, but it’s to give a taste of the book and to see what you think. I would love your feedback. So without further adieu here is the excerpt. I love you guys and have a great day!

Here’s the excerpt:

Fear of Abandonment

Chapter 1

Kyle hated this. He didn’t understand it. This was the third morning in a row that he got up and felt sick to his stomach. He couldn’t keep anything down. He didn’t understand it at all. He decided to not eat anything for the rest of the day. He knew Adam kept ginger ale in the office. He cleared his throat, wiped his mouth and went back to the office. Adam and Ashley had just arrived to office from their meeting to find out it was lunch time. Kyle came in a few minutes after them. He headed to the refrigerator to get a ginger ale. Kyle saw Adam saying something to Ashley before he left. Kyle went to his desk and decided to stay in for lunch. He decided to just sit and rest. He saw Ashley getting his things. He hadn’t spoken to Ashley for exactly 6 months. It was hard. Kyle loved Ashley and wanted to be there for him and support him. But he would never forgive him for what he had done. Kyle remembered that day like it was yesterday. At first Ashley tried to keep talking to Kyle, but then he finally gave up. Kyle felt a sickening feeling in his stomach. Ashley had finished getting his things and as soon as he left Kyle grabbed a trash can and threw up. He threw up the ginger ale and some other things. He breathed in again. He went to get up and fell down. He grunted. He was in pain. He wasn’t sure, but he thought he heard something crack. He heard footsteps and hoped to God it wasn’t Adam or Ashley, but he was surprised to see that it was Ashley. For some reason it made him feel peaceful. “Ashley?” Kyle said weakly. Ashley knelt beside him and touched Kyle’s cheek. “Yeah mate it’s me. Everything’s going to be alright. I’m calling an ambulance.” Ashley said nervously. Kyle nodded slowly. It was the only response he could give at the moment. Ashley dialed for an ambulance. He was scared. He wasn’t sure what was wrong. He was frightened for Kyle. Kyle didn’t like hospitals and he didn’t like doctors. He didn’t trust them. He had a bad experience when he was younger and he told Ashley once that he would never set foot in a hospital ever again. Ashley hung up. Kyle was still breathing, but it was shallow. Ashley picked up the trash can and he saw what looked like blood. He wasn’t sure if it was, but it was enough to scare him. Kyle opened his eyes again. Kyle was scared too he just wouldn’t admit it. Kyle looked at Ashley. “Ashley.” Kyle said again weakly. Ashley rushed to his side and kneeled down. “Ashley.” Kyle whispered. “Yes love? I’m right here. Everything’s going to be okay. The ambulance is on it’s way. I’m right here.” Ashley stated. Kyle nodded again. “Close your eyes mate. Just rest love.” Ashley said seriously. Kyle nodded and closed his eyes. He wasn’t going to argue. He was tired and he was weak and he was in a great deal of pain. Not to mention my throat is on fire. He thought to himself.

The ambulance arrived a few minutes later. Ashley told them he was Kyle’s partner and of course they let him ride in the ambulance. He didn’t like to lie, but for Kyle he would do anything. He didn’t want Kyle to ride to the hospital by himself. Ashley waited as they put Kyle in the ambulance. They helped him to get up and he sat next to Kyle. Kyle was resting. Ashley started to cry. He would never forgive himself if anything were to happen to Kyle and he never got to talk to him. He wasn’t sure what would happen, but he what he did know was that he wanted his best friend back. He took Kyle’s hand in his and kissed it. He squeezed it and pushed Kyle’s hair back. He kissed his forehead. Please God please don’t take him from me. I’ll tell him. I’ll tell him the truth just please spare him. Please let him live. Give him a second chance. Ashley prayed to himself.