Hello everyone. I know it’s been a while. Work is super crazy and I have been super tired. But enough about that. Today is a special day. Today is St. Patrick’s Day. I’ve never celebrated it, but for some reason, I decided to do so. I never even knew what the holiday was or anything like that. So today I decided to google it and I found it very interesting. The thing that fascinated me the most was that it was a Christian Holiday to honor St. Patrick, according to the research I did. I don’t know why that fascinated me so much, but it did. I hate to say this and I know it may be wrong, but I’m tired of being a Christian sometimes just because I am supposed to say the right thing and do the right thing, but I’m not. I’m not perfect. I get so irritated at people you know. “You” judge the entire “Christian group” based on how one Christian acted toward you. That is why I don’t refer to myself as a Christian anymore. For one, it’s overrated and two I prefer a different term. I prefer to be called a Christ follower. The reason I like this term is that I am a student of his word. I follow him because I have faith. Faith is the evidence of things not seen. (Hebrews 11:1) Most Christians want to believe in what they see I know because I’ve seen it. I am one of those Christians. Well, I used to be. I live by faith. God has some done some really awesome things this past week and I believe that he will do anything he says he will. He has really pulled me out of the fire. I’m not saying I have it all figured out. I’m not saying that I don’t doubt myself, my sexuality, my place in the world as a woman, but what I am saying is that this: I will live by faith. Faith is what gets us through the hard times. It truly does. I see that now. I want to make a difference. I want to help others and I don’t want any glory for it. That is the difference between a “Christian” and a Christ Follower. I know many Christ followers. I have seen many, but you won’t see them in the front lines. They will be behind the scenes, suffering in silence and crying many tears. They will pray instead of worrying. They will trust and have faith in God, even though they are suffering and in pain. I’m not sure why this comes up. Maybe because of this holiday and the research I did. It’s something I feel very strongly about, but I don’t say it often because I don’t want to be a preacher. I don’t want to force my beliefs on anyone. I want to be a friend to everyone and be an encourager. I want people to see God, not me. I want people to look at me and say hey if she can do it so can I. If I can help one person I know in my heart, I will have made a difference. I don’t even care if I live to see it. I just want to help one person, at least one. I’m sure I’ve helped more than one, but even if I’ve only helped one that will make me happy.
Enjoy this day and Happy St. Patrick’s day!! I am spending the day with my mom at home resting. I had to work yesterday and I’m beat.
I love you all so much and we’ll talk again soon.
Always in Love,