“No More”

I’ve let go of another part of myself. I’m tired of holding onto. I let the “bitch” go. I’m so glad. I have always felt guilty about things, but it got really bad when I suffered the Verbal abuse from my mom. But tonight I went down to immateria and I said goodbye to this part of myself.

Tyler and Michael were in their room tonight when I got home. I ate my dinner in the dark and I decided to write in a journal that the whole house can write in. I wrote several pieces in there, but I wrote one to Tyler and I started to cry. The tears were so overwhelming and I decided it was time to let go of this feeling guilty part of myself.

So I wanted to share this piece with you. I hope this helps you and encourages you to let go of things in your life.

Here’s the piece:

“No More”

Dedicated to Kathleen Ann Wyatt

I’m tired of this bullshit of feeling guilty.

I’m tired of stepping on eggshells to make everyone happy.

Well no more.

Do you hear me?!

No more. I will not feel guilty.

I’m done.

I’m not perfect and if you are than fuck you.

I’m done!

I’m done!

I’m tired of not being able to enjoy my life because I am guilty about everything.

I’m tired of all of it.

I’m done and I’m tired.

No more. I will not feel guilty.

I will not let others run all over me.

I will not let myself feel guilty anymore.

If I’ve done something wrong than you need to fucking tell me.

If I’ve done something to you you need to fucking tell me.

I’m not a fucking mind reader.

I wish, but I’m not.

Grown up. Just grow the fuck up.

I’m done with you.

Thank you for helping me to survive, but I don’t need you anymore.

I invite you to leave.

You heard me bitch! Leave!

Leave and never come back and I hope you don’t enjoy your stay. Bye!

Enjoy!

Love you,

Kathleen

 

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