My Journey; My Path: The Next Chapter Day 62

Good morning beautiful people. I hope you are doing well. I’m doing great. I didn’t sleep well last night, but that’s okay. I’m starting to feel a little sick so I’m going to get some medicine at the store and knock this bitch out. I’m not the type of person that I am going to get sick and complain about it. That’s the old me. I will not do that anymore.

So if you haven’t read it I strongly encourage you to read it. It’s my newest piece called “No More”. I wrote it last and posted it. I let another part of myself go and I was glad to see this bitch leave. She had held me captive so long and I’m so glad to see her leave. I will never let her back into my life. Oh man. If I do I will shoot myself. I hate her. The thought of this bitch makes me sick, but she’s gone and that’s the most important thing.

Work was awesome yesterday. I had this one co-worker just got on my nerves. I had to literally leave and get away from him because I almost cussed his ass out. I’m like excuse me it’s my fourth day I’m still learning. I didn’t tell him that, but I wanted to. But he just kept at me and at me. I realize now as I look back that he was just trying to be helpful he didn’t mean anymore. He just wasn’t going about it in the right way. You have to go about things in the right way so that you can be completely effective when trying to help someone who is knew. Everyone goes about it differently, but as long as you are helping the other person and not tearing them down it’s perfectly fine. But anyway. I’m getting there. I’m remembering things and I’m working my way through. Sara who is my boss paid me a compliment yesterday and she was asking me how I was doing. She checked in on me. I thought that was very sweet. She is very supportive and she told me if I had any questions to let her know. Her and Nelva who is the assistant manager is awesome too. She’s very helpful. She went over everything with me very slowly and actually helped me to figure out how I want to do things when I close by myself. It was awesome.

Today. I’ve got a list of things to do. That bathroom. Oh my god ya’ll. Our bathroom here at the farm is nasty. It’s going to take me an hour and a half to clean this bitch. She’s nasty let me tell you. Someone other than me finally empty the trash and I don’t feel guilty about that at all. I’m like finally what the fuck. I would never say that to anyone, but it’s nice to share my thoughts with you. I got my last paycheck from Tanglewood. It was more than I expected, but I don’t care. I’m happy. I have to pay my bills though which are much. I’m glad. I’m going to buy some food insteading of going out. I’ve made a list of stuff I want to get. Basically I made the list yesterday and it’s stuff I need for now and for the new place. I can’t wait to drop off my application today. I want to move so bad. I can’t take this place anymore. I don’t mean that in a bad way, but I really want my own space. I want to be able to write and do the things I need to do without fearing I’m going to wake someone up. It’s crazy. Anyway enough of that.

Well that’s all for now. I’ll keep you updated on the job and the apartment as well. Thanks again for all the love, support, encouragement, likes, and follows on my blog. It means so much to me that I can help you and inspire you the way I have been helped and inspired. It’s wonderful. It’s a wonderful feeling. I’m finally in the position that I can help someone else.

Have a great day and I love you guys!

Love you,

Kathleen