This is the piece I was telling you guys about in my blog this morning. I hope you enjoy it.
Love you guys,
Dedicated to me (myself, Kathleen Wyatt)
Why? Why do I feel so unworthy? I want people to love me. I want people to accept me. I want them to respect me and care for me and love me. So why? Why do I feel this way? I am a beautiful, intelligent, smart, capable, loving, trusting, wonderful, amazing woman right? Why do I feel unworthy?
Who taught me this? Who taught me to be unworthy? Who taught me? Was it my family, my friends, my old life? Of course the list could go on. How did I learn this? How did I learn to be unworthy? I didn’t learn this in school or did I?
Why am I being made into something I’m not?
Why do I carry this burden even after all these years?
I think and I think and I think till I can’t think anymore.
What am I supposed to do?
Who will help me?
Where does my help comes from?
Why do I reject people? Why do I reject my family? All they want to do is help me. Tyler, Michael, Amy, and the others want to help me.
I just want to be loved and someone to love me in return.
Is it too much to ask?
I must answer this question.
Why do I feel unworthy?
I feel unworthy because it is all in my mind. All my obstacles are in my mind. I must get stronger mentally and that means finding balance. That means finding myself and that will take a lifetime.