Thank God it’s Friday!! How are you guys this morning?! I’m doing good. Oh man what a day yesterday. I started out and I was good and then it all went downhill from there. I took a walk and I said goodbye to my mother. I meditated and went into the house. I took a nap and then I got a migraine and then I got mail from my mom. She also called me. It all went downhill from there. I was laying down in my room and Tyler, Michael, Amy, and a friend of Michael and Tyler came over and spent the night. They were making so much noise I couldn’t sleep. I asked them nicely to keep it down and then I went into my room. I started to cry. I just broke down and I cried. I needed to. I started to go back to my old ways and start doubting myself and I actually stopped myself from doing it. I truly found healing yesterday. I actually wrote a poem in my head. I’ll share it with you guys once I write down. It basically talked about me and how it was just me by myself and I just broke down and cried. It felt good. I woke up later and Tyler and I talked about it. He and I just talked it was so nice. I think the healing has begun and more is to come.
Today I’m heading to Asheboro to get the rest of my stuff. I’ll give you the short version. My mom is moving out and I have to get my stuff. Michael is going with me. I’m so glad he is. He’s so supportive and super sweet. I just love him. I’m glad he’s going with me. There is a chance my mom is going to be there, but that’s okay. I am ready. I am ready to face it and get it over with it. Because after today I won’t ever have to go back there. I’m so excited for that. I’m in my own story and she is not included in my story right now. Michael and I had this really honest conversation the other day and everything he said is so true. It really is. I just love him. I am in a space where I loved and respected. I am told that someone is proud of me and most of all I feel safe. It’s an awesome feeling. I also learning a big lesson yesterday. I need to start taking better care of myself. I really do. I started exercising and I need to eat since I am exercising.
I did a couple of applications yesterday and I may do like one or two today. I’ll see. I’ll keep you updated on everything. I head back to work tomorrow. I’m working straight through till next Wednesday now. Robin asked me to work four hours on Monday. I told her I would. I’m going to need the money. Ally is the company that I pay my car loan too and they didn’t approve for me to put the car in my name so I’m going to go through SECU instead. But when I’m ready I will do that and not before.
Have a great day and a great weekend. I love you guys so much. Thank you for your support, encouragement, and your love.